Finishing Always Feels Good, Chapter 8

Looking for Chapter 1? It’s here.
Chapter 2?  Here.
How about Chapter 3?
Can’t forget Chapter 4!

There’s also Chapter 5.
And Chapter 6.
Last but not least, Chapter 7.

No sex or violence here.  In fact, this very short chapter is basically just an epilogue and, much like the one at the end of every Quinn Martin television show, is designed to deliver exposition and tidily wrap up the story.  Anyway, congratulations!  You’ve made it to the end of the story.  Just kidding; I know nobody is actually reading this.

Carrie stepped out of the shower and put a towel around herself. She took a second one, wrapped it around her head, and walked into the bedroom where she dried herself off and put on her bathrobe. The house was quiet; Jake and Libby fell asleep after dinner, and Rick had only just gotten home.

Carrie walked out into the kitchen. Rick sat at the table, a half-empty Corona before him along with two empties. He was still in his work clothes, looking at his phone, deeply focused on the screen. Carrie didn’t have to see his face to know something was wrong. And she had a feeling she knew exactly what it was, though she wondered how he found out so quickly. She adopted her best poker face and prepared herself to look surprised, even sad. She wondered if she’d be able to muster up any tears, just to sell the performance.

“What is it?” Rick looked up from his phone. His eyes were red. “Are you crying?”

He couldn’t speak, so he handed her his phone. The browser was open to a news story, and when Carrie scrolled back up to the top and started to read, she couldn’t believe the words in front of her.

Rick finally spoke: “He killed her. He fucking killed her.” His voice cracked, the wavering tone betraying the emotion not far below the surface. She could feel his despair, and for a moment she was acknowledged the pain he must have been feeling. She knew he had loved Vicky, and she hadn’t meant for any of this to happen, but if it hadn’t it would have been Carrie lying dead in a morgue somewhere. After a moment Rick said, “They’re both dead.”

Carrie’s eyes went wide. “Both?” She read aloud from the article. “Officers responding to the domestic disturbance fired on the armed suspect, who later died of his injuries.” Paul! Dead! She tried to power through the shock and, just to cover her own ass, asked Rick, “Who? Who are they?”

“Vicky and Paul.” Carrie gasped. “He beat her to death or something, and the police shot him. They’re both dead.”

“I can’t believe this,” Carrie said in spite of herself. And she legitimately couldn’t. Even though she knew Paul hadn’t killed his wife, he wasn’t the kind of person who would attack a cop.

Rick must have been thinking the same thing. “I wonder if he pulled a gun or something.”

Carrie shook his head. “No. He wouldn’t have. You know they didn’t have any guns.”

“I bet you wouldn’t have thought he would have killed his wife. A guy who’d do something like that sure as hell could have gotten his hands on a gun.” Carrie shrugged. Rick continued: “I guess he could have had a knife. It doesn’t say how he killed her.”

“I guess anything is possible.” Carrie continued reading: “Investigators discovered what is believed to be a makeshift grave on the premises. Evidence recovered from the home furthers the case theory. Police are treating it as a closed case.” She looked up from the phone, unable to process what she had read. “What does that even mean?”

“It means it was premeditated,” Rick speculated. “Either that, or he got pissed off and killed her without thinking, then went in the backyard and dug a hole. Either way, it’s pretty fucked up.” She nodded, feeling a growing lump in her throat. “Anyway, someone heard them struggling and called the cops. They show up, he panics and maybe he tries to kill them. Or else he wants them to shoot him. He killed his wife and he doesn’t want to go to prison. Because let’s face it, that guy would get eaten alive. So when they tell him to drop it he…”

Carrie finished the thought: “Doesn’t drop it.” With the phone still in hand, she sat down beside Rick and put her arms around him. He put his around her. They sat together for a minute, and at last she said, “I’m sorry.” He didn’t say anything. Instead he just stroked her hair. She continued: “Are you okay?”

He shrugged. “Are you?”

She picked up his Corona from the table and finished it. Then she said, with more confidence than she could have predicted, “Yeah.”

Finishing Always Feels Good, Chapter 7

Looking for Chapter 1? It’s here.
Chapter 2?  Here.
How about Chapter 3?
Can’t forget Chapter 4!

There’s also Chapter 5.
And Chapter 6.

This chapter, like the one before it contains much graphic violence.  As it is, essentially, the climax of the story, it’s safe to say that lives will be changed forever.  Though well-written, it is not a pleasant chapter, although were any of them, really?  Except maybe for Chapters 4 and 5, where the sex occurred.

Focus on the beach.

It was easier now. Carrie felt a sense of peace she’d never felt before as she saw herself lying on a large colorful towel in the sun, wearing sunglasses and her favorite swimsuit. She was slathered in sunblock, a dog-eared paperback book lying within easy reach. She could feel the powdery sand under her arms and legs. There was no mistaking Jake and Libby’s excited voices as they splashed in the surf with Rick.

Jake and Libby. A pang of regret shattered the calm as Carrie realized she wouldn’t get to see them grow into teenagers, and then the adults she raised them to be. She would miss out on everything: Breakfast in bed for Mother’s Day. Scraped knees. Spelling bees. She smiled at the inadvertent rhyme. She’d never see them graduate from high school, or college. And their weddings, if they decided they wanted to get married. She’d miss those as well. Rick would definitely remarry, though. There was no way he could handle life on his own, not with two kids.

Carrie hoped her replacement would be good to him, and to their children. She hoped she would be an atheist, and that she would encourage Jake and Libby to be wonderful free spirits, unburdened by social norms. She hoped she wouldn’t be blonde, though she was well aware of Rick’s fixation on fair-haired women. As she drifted off into the unknown, she supposed that last one didn’t matter as much; she didn’t really care if the woman who would raise her children was blonde. Better she’s blonde and an atheist than a brunette who insists the family attend church regularly. That’s all that mattered. If she could assure herself that her children would avoid the kind of upbringing Carrie had gone through, she could believe everything was going to be okay.

She saw Rick sitting on a beach towel nearby and felt tears welling up in her eyes; she would miss him terribly. She felt stupid over the mistakes they had made in their marriage, though if she had another chance she couldn’t have imagined doing anything differently. She would have met Alan in that alley back in Osan. She would have given Rick the one-time free pass that drove him into the arms of the Singawhore. She thought of the look on Jamie’s face as her eyes slowly closed the night of the ball. Carrie sure showed her, didn’t she? At least Rick wouldn’t be marrying that tawdry homewrecker.

Rick reclined on his elbows and watched the kids playing in the water. Carrie tried to get up from her towel to go join Rick on his, but she couldn’t move. She tried again, but still nothing. That’s when she noticed that Rick was looking over the tops of his sunglasses to make eyes at someone else. A blonde woman in a two-piece bikini walked up, her body wet from the surf. Her left hand held Libby’s, and her right held Jake’s. Carrie gasped. No fucking way. He wouldn’t. He couldn’t. Anybody but her.

The woman knelt down beside Rick, wrapped the children in towels, and dried them off. Rick put his hand on her shoulder and she looked down at him. The tenderness Carrie could see in her eyes was too much to behold and she choked back a sob. It made Carrie sad to see him this close to another woman. To this woman.

No. It didn’t make her sad. It made her angry. She opened her eyes and saw the very same woman looming over her, her face a gory mask of fury and madness. Spittle and blood dripped from Vicky’s mouth as she continued to choke the younger woman, her wide eyes searing with malice and hate. As Carrie started to struggle against her, Vicky’s thumbs tightened. She was saying something too, but Carrie couldn’t hear a word. She reached out blindly, her hands groping for anything she could use as a weapon. All she could feel was broken glass against her hands, and she knew it was cutting into her skin.

She could barely make her fingers respond to her brain’s commands. If she didn’t find something and manage to grab it soon, it wouldn’t matter. Vicky’s knees weighed heavily on Carrie’s thighs and pinned her to the spot, every word she spoke muffled through clenched teeth. Carrie could feel something wet – Vicky’s blood, most likely – dripping onto her face and she wanted it to stop. She moved her arm desperately along the floor over bristly carpet and terrible, sharp bits of glass until she came upon something different. Her fingers curled around the handle of Vicky’s fallen coffee cup and she swung it as hard as she could.

The impact loosened Vicky’s hands from Carrie’s throat, and Carrie hit her again. And again. And again. It was enough to knock her opponent off of her, at least. As Vicky got to her feet, Carrie rose on shaky legs and mentally willed herself to do anything she had to do to leave this house alive.

She faced her opponent. Vicky’s blonde locks were smeared with blood. She held the side of her head as she tried to scan the ground for a weapon, one eye still fixed on the other woman. Carrie raised the mug to hit her again but noticed all she held was the jagged, broken handle. Carrie threw it at her and had to force herself not to smile when the small fragment hit its mark.

“You’re dead,” Vicky hissed.

“You took the words right out of my mouth.” Carrie bent down to pick up a broken table leg, and hoped that whatever expression she had on her face was enough to convince the other woman to sink to her knees in fear and make whatever came next easier. As she approached her opponent she noticed with some satisfaction that Vicky wasn’t moving, wasn’t trying to run, wasn’t preparing her next attack. “You made me do this.” There was cold determination in her voice as she raised her weapon. This was it. Now or never. She could do what she knew she needed to do and walk out of there, or she could hesitate and give Vicky the chance to kill her.

She swung the table leg. Vicky grabbed her wrist as it came down, then swatted the piece of wood out of Carrie’s hand. As it hit the floor, Vicky charged, but Carrie moved out of the way and sent her fist soaring as she passed. The punch landed hard against the back of Vicky’s neck and the woman screamed in pain, pivoting on her heels to face Carrie once again. Or maybe she didn’t do it on purpose. Maybe it was the force of Carrie’s punch that caused her to turn, but either way, Carrie wasn’t about to take any chances.

She grabbed Vicky by the arm and tried to slam her back down to the ground. Their momentum, however, sent them reeling toward the television. At the last minute, Vicky gave a fevered, awful bellow and pushed her opponent away. Carrie careened into the large, ornate mirror hanging next to the TV, and as her body hit it full speed, the glass gave way. It collapsed into hundreds of shiny, reflective fragments before the entire frame came off of its mounting and followed them to the floor.

Carrie said “Ow” as she picked herself up off of the ground. It was instinctive. Vicky reached down and picked up a particularly nasty-looking shard of mirror. Carrie grabbed a tall brass lamp from its spot on the floor and lifted it like a quarterstaff. It was heavy, but Carrie quickly turned it around, facing her opponent with the large round base. Vicky hadn’t even resumed her fighting stance before Carrie smashed it into her wrist, knocking the glass away. The woman howled in pain, so Carrie did it again. And then one more time. She couldn’t hear any bones breaking, but she hoped they had.

Vicky sank to her knees, her eyes wide. She cradled her shattered hand as tears of agony began to roll down her cheeks. The look on her face was one of incredulity, like someone who’s just realized her best laid plans have been shot to hell. And she screamed! Oh, how she screamed. It would have been music to Carrie’s ears if not for the fact that she was making no sound.

Carrie regarded the heavy lamp, and wondered what to do with it. She considered pushing Vicky to the ground and bringing the base down on her head, as many times as she needed to. If it worked for her hand, it would work for her skull. But that sounded really gross. Carrie didn’t like dissecting frogs back in high school. She doubted she’d like this either. She supposed she could stand behind Vicky and strangle her with the lamp. But that sounded awkward and difficult so she set it back down.

Instead, Carrie put her hands on Vicky’s neck. The woman didn’t react as she closed her fingers around her throat and squeezed. “You’re finished,” she said, her voice a bit shaky. Vicky’s eyes went even wider and her tongue lolled out of the side of her mouth like a thirsty dog. Carrie said it again. Her voice sounded more dominant this time, more in control. She said it again, and by this time she was positively reveling in the control she felt.

Vicky began making hacking sounds from the back of her throat. It was unpleasant to hear, so Carrie said it again, louder this time. And she kept saying it as she focused on the task ahead of her. She didn’t think about how close she’d come to dying. She didn’t think of the obscenity of taking another person’s life, even in self-defense. All she could think was that she’d won. This was as much for Vicky turning Rick against Carrie all those months before as it was for Vicky setting Carrie up to be ambushed by Elisa and Jamie, or for whatever it was that Vicky put in her coffee.

After what seemed like an hour, Carrie realized Vicky wasn’t moving anymore. She’d stopped making that horrible noise, and her eyes had rolled all the way back in their sockets long before. She wasn’t even twitching anymore. So Carrie loosened her grip and the woman slumped to the floor. She lay there for a moment before Carrie realized her chest wasn’t rising at all.

As she gazed down at the motionless form before her, Carrie realized it was time to go. She hoped nobody was outside when she left: A nosy mailman, a neighbor watering his lawn, some stay-at-home soccer mom unloading groceries from her Minivan. It was nearly afternoon on a weekday. Even if someone was there, even if someone noticed her making her escape, she was sure they’d pay no mind. Or she hoped, anyway. Carrie remembered watching a TV show or a movie where two guys killed someone and then they had to hang around in his house all day because they couldn’t chance carrying the body out until after dark. Carrie couldn’t wait that long, of course; Paul would be home from work eventually, and the kids would be home from school. She exhaled with relief as it occurred to her that she didn’t have to remove Vicky’s body. She just had to get her own out of the house, and she had to do it now.

At the front door, Carrie felt for her keys. The wristlet! It wasn’t there. She looked back at the coffee table where she’d set it down – or rather, where the coffee table had once stood. All that remained was the pile of shattered glass and splintered wood that she and Vicky left in their wake. Carrie hurried back into the family room and sifted through the mess, careful not to bloody her hands on the shards of glass. It wasn’t there.

Her heartbeat spiked as panic washed over her. She couldn’t leave without it. Beyond the fact that her car and house keys were clipped to it, her credit cards were inside as well. Some cash, too. And of course, her driver’s license. When the police eventually showed up, that wristlet would be all the evidence they needed that she’d been in the house. She didn’t even want to think about the DNA they might find.

Carrie checked near the piano, and under it. Then she looked by the sliding glass door. There was no sign. Though it was a long shot, she headed over to the dining table and the kitchen. Maybe when Vicky moved to dodge the coffee cup she bumped it off the table and it somehow ended up there? Carrie was running out of ideas. On her way to the kitchen she kicked something, then looked down and there it was. She crouched down and grabbed it, then passed her hand through the strap, not even pausing to catch her breath before she started for the front door once again.

At the same time, Paul pulled his car into the garage. He turned off the engine, shut the garage door and got out. He pulled out the canvas shopping bag from his trunk and set it down on the concrete. First he unfolded the white coverall and put it on over his clothes. He didn’t put on the hood just yet; he hoped he wouldn’t need to. Then he opened up the package of booties – sorry, disposable polypropylene shoe covers – and slipped two over his shoes. He was surprised at how easy it was to buy the stuff. He just walked right into Home Depot and told the guy he needed something to keep sawdust off of his clothes. Cleaning supplies, aisle nineteen.

The one thing that wasn’t so easy to buy, however, was the quicklime. They didn’t have it at Home Depot. They didn’t have it at Lowry’s, or Ace Hardware. The closest thing those stores carried was calcium hydroxide, and a quick Google search informed him that it wasn’t even close to the same thing. He had to get it from a masonry company, and it wasn’t particularly cheap. If they’d planned it out better, they would have ordered it online and had it delivered, because it wasn’t light, either. Paul hoisted the bag out of his trunk and set it down on the floor of the garage with a thud. The guy at the masonry place said he’d need heavy-duty gloves to handle the quicklime; luckily he had a pair to sell him. They were probably way more expensive than the ones at Home Depot. Lesson learned.

Back inside the house, Carrie heard a door open with a soft, quiet click. Paul!  She stopped in her tracks. Her blood went icy-cold. She looked around the room. Nowhere to hide. She couldn’t make it to the door now, not before he came in from the garage and saw what had happened. He’d find her there, standing near his wife’s body, and even if she managed to get the hell out of there, he’d call the police and lead them right to her. He’d testify that she was at the scene. If that happened, she may as well have just left the wristlet there for the police to find.

A familiar voice called out “Vicky?” Carrie turned on her feet and dashed to the back door. She unlocked it, slid it open, and barely managed to pull it shut – fuck locking it! – before running headlong into the backyard. She crossed the patio in three long strides, her feet a blur as she ran over the paving stones to the grass of the backyard. She dashed past the kids’ play structure and the trampoline where Jake and Libby sometimes played with Emily and Kyle. Her only chance was over the back fence.

As she ran across the yard she lost her footing and then, suddenly, she was falling. The ground rushed up at her, and before she knew it she had fallen through it. Carrie hit something hard with her face, then bounced backward and something else smashed against her head. There was dirt on her hands. On her clothes. No blood at least. She looked up and saw blue sky and sunlight. No way! Those fuckers had dug some kind of a trap for her. It wasn’t very deep, but her head felt like it was spinning and she thought she might throw up. Still, she couldn’t slow down now. Carrie lifted herself out of the hole and headed right for the fence.

As she lifted herself up to crest the wooden posts, she took one last look into the house. It was hard to see for the sunlight and the harsh glare, but she thought for an instant that she saw somebody in a Haz-Mat suit or something, crouching down near where she’d left Vicky. The hell? She leapt over the fence and into the next yard. She didn’t stop to look around and see if anyone was present. Didn’t even slow down. Instead she made for their gate, and freedom.

Back inside the house, Paul was in the middle of rescue-breathing, plus regular chest compressions. He hadn’t called 911, which every first aid class or YouTube video tells you is the first thing you do in a situation like this. But he couldn’t very well have the paramedics and the police show up at the house, what with the freshly-dug grave in the backyard. No, he was going to have to do this all by himself. If it wasn’t too late already.

He gave her two more breaths, then began to push down on her chest, desperate to get her heart beating again. He had no idea how long she’d been lying here before he arrived. The only thing Paul knew for sure is that this wasn’t how it was supposed to go. He counted the thirtieth compression, then gave her two more breaths. After that, he immediately started compression all over again. After another cycle of this, though, he stopped. It was over.

Paul took a deep breath and stood up. He took off the booties and went into the backyard. He put them into the garbage can, then took off the coverall. He folded it neatly and set it down on a patio chair. There wasn’t much he could do about the hole in the yard; it would take a couple hours to fill it in and he didn’t feel like digging right now. So instead he went back inside and shut the blinds over the sliding glass door, and finally called 911.

“911. What is your emergency?”

Paul took a deep breath and spoke. “I just got home and my wife’s been hurt. She’s not responsive.”

“Are there any visible injuries?”

He looked down at her. “She’s got some cuts and stuff. The house is a mess. I think it was a break-in.” He walked around the house, scanning the debris all over the floor. He hoped there was nothing there that might incriminate him or Vicky.

“Is there an intruder currently in your home, sir?”

“No. I don’t think so.” Paul found the bottle of windshield wiper fluid on the kitchen counter and picked it up. He’d have to get it out of sight before the paramedics arrived.

“Is your wife breathing?”

“No,” Paul said, trying to hide the resignation in his voice. Then he added a quick “I don’t think she is.” Paul knew she was dead. But the dispatcher didn’t have to know he knew it. He set the wiper fluid in the cabinet under the kitchen sink and returned to where Vicky lay.

“Do you know how to perform CPR, sir?”

“Yes.”

“Okay. You need to start performing CPR now. Start with thirty chest compressions.”

Paul didn’t do as he was instructed; instead he sat there for about a minute before speaking into his phone: “Okay, now I do the rescue breathing, right?”

“Tilt her head back and administer two breaths into her airway.” Paul stood over his wife’s body, and two seconds passed before the dispatcher continued: “Give her thirty more compressions, sir.”

He looked down at Vicky’s still form, aware of his own heartbeat pounding in his chest. Before the dispatcher spoke again, the sensation had grown more insistent, the sound lounder, urgent.

“Now administer two more breaths.”

The pounding continued. Paul thought he heard someone shouting somewhere. A neighbor, maybe. He put his hand on his chest, as though that could steady his raging, panicked heart. More shouting. He wanted to open a window and yell for whoever it was to shut up, because his wife was hurt, he was on the phone with 911, and they were stressing him out.

More pounding. His heart hurt. Yelling. Who was yelling? It was coming from the front door. Which swung open as two uniformed police officers kicked their way inside.

One shouted “Police!” as they charged inside. He turned toward them, phone still in hand.

“He’s got a knife!” Paul had barely registered the words when everything went black. He didn’t even hear the gunshots.

To be concluded.

 

TMI Tuesday: June 7, 2016

Today TMI Tuesday is all about guilty pleasures.

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Jack’s Answers

1. What TV show do you love to watch but are a little embarrassed to tell friends that you simply cannot miss an episode.
Honestly, I don’t really know. I don’t watch much TV, and what little I do watch doesn’t fall under the trashy reality TV heading. Real Housewives, Duck Dynasty, Doomsday Preppers, Honey Boo-Boo, Hillbillies Picking Through Someone’s Trash – that’s the kind of show I might feel a bit ashamed of watching, but then I don’t watch them. If I was the sort to find those shows entertaining, I’d probably be proud of it, and flaunt my fandom in the face of those hifalutin types who watch Downton Abbey.

2. What website and/or magazine do you read and it’s your guilty pleasure?
Again, I’m not sure. I want to just say none. I read a few magazines regularly despite print media being more or less dead. But I don’t read anything that really makes me feel like I should wear a trenchcoat with the collar pulled way up when I buy it at my local Barnes & Noble. However, I’m guessing there are those who would be mortified to be seen with such reading material. I refer primarily to a few horror and science fiction periodicals, the occasional cooking magazine, and of course Mad Magazine, which I’ve been reading since I was about five. And despite its self-deprecating attitude, I don’t really consider it a guilty pleasure. As for websites, maybe just the usual porn sites? But I don’t really feel guilty about any of them.

3. What is the grocery store item you buy but you know you should not?
Again, I don’t have much to contribute here. If I was a big consumer of tabloid journalism I’d mention that here, but these days I wouldn’t be caught dead reading People, much less The National Enquirer or The Weekly World News. Some varaiety of really unhealthy food seems ideal to mention here, but I honestly don’t buy that much. I try to eat healthy as much as possible – not enough, I know – and while I buy a lot of bacon I don’t really give a fuck if it kills me in ten years because a baconless existence seems really empty and worthless to me. Same thing with cheese.

4. Tell us about something you do at work that you would not want your co-workers to know that you do.
Remain in the office after close of business under the guise of working late, and then masturbate while looking at the family photos on their desks. Full disclosure: I don’t actually work in an office and have never actually done this. Actually I kind of wish I had; I’ve had a lot of hot co-workers, including Christine. Remember her?

5. Do you have a secret stash? What is it?
Okay, this one I have a legitimate answer for. I’ve retained a number of pairs of panties from old girlfriends. In some cases they were left at my house when said girlfriend dumped me. In other cases they were given to me as a memento, in one case when I was embarking on a several-day trip without her. They date back more than twenty years in some cases and I definitely should have tossed them by now. I don’t use them for masturbating. I’m not sure what the hell they’re still doing here. But, essentially, that is my secret stash.

Bonus: What is your most embarrassing guilty pleasure?
I occasionally like to sing the works of Rodgers and Hammerstein, in particular Oklahoma! when no one’s around. Please don’t tell anyone.

Jill’s Answers

1. What TV show do you love to watch but are a little embarrassed to tell friends that you simply cannot miss an episode.
Pretty Little Liars. This is not the first or even the second time I’ve cited that show as my guilty pleasure. See the two previous instances here and here.

2. What website and/or magazine do you read and it’s your guilty pleasure?
I don’t think there are any. Maybe I’ll go with Cook’s Country, to which we have a subscription. I love quality home-cooked meals, and there’s something incredibly fun about imagining a hot naked man in my kitchen cooking for me.

3. What is the grocery store item you buy but you know you should not?
Potato chips. I love them, and I frequently need to be on guard against eating an entire bag in one sitting. This is why single-serving bags of potato chips were invented.

4. Tell us about something you do at work that you would not want your co-workers to know that you do.
I take topless pictures in the bathroom when I’m on my lunch break.

5. Do you have a secret stash? What is it?
It’s a bag of Peanut M&Ms in my desk drawer at work. And it’s getting emptier by the day.

Bonus: What is your most embarrassing guilty pleasure?
I take a lot of topless pictures in bathrooms (not just at work). It happens a lot when we’re out at a nice restaurant, so much so that I suspect Jack knows to expect one when we’re out at dinner. Also, it secretly turns me on to think I might get caught. Well, I guess it isn’t a secret anymore.

How to play TMI Tuesday: Copy the above TMI Tuesday questions to your webspace (i.e., a blog). Answer the questions there, then leave a comment below, on this blog post, so we’ll all know where to read your responses. Please don’t forget to link to tmituesdayblog from your website!

 

Masturbation Month 2016: A Look Back

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For the fifth straight year, Jill and I spent May participating in Masturbation Month.  For those unaware, the event was first held on May 28, 1995 as a single-day celebration of self-pleasure.  It began as a response to the firing of U.S. Surgeon General Joycelyn Elders after she suggested masturbation be included in sex education curriculum.  Subsequently expanding to the entire month, it seeks to remove the icky taboo and general stigma from masturbation.

We’ve posted about masturbation in late May or early June of every year since 2012. In 2014 and 2015 we included a statistical breakdown for geeky types who get turned on by numbers. We’d include a total count for each of us, as well as things like the number of times interrupted sessions, how many times we got off to visual porn versus verbal erotica, different toys used, most frequent location, etc.

This year, however, we didn’t bother with stats. I’m not sure if it was a conscious decision or if we just forgot to keep track of such things, but I suspect the latter. When I did notice, mid-month, that we hadn’t kept an ongoing tally of the variations of our solo sex life it didn’t really concern me. In years past, all that note-taking proved to be a pain in the ass.

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One thing I can say with absolute certainty at the conclusion of this year’s Masturbation Month is that we’ve both been masturbating consistently. Obviously I try to masturbate consistently, at least once a day, and I made a conscious effort (not that I really had to) to keep it up through May. For the most part, I was successful.

I did, however, miss a couple days during Memorial Day weekend. We were staying with family, i.e. not in our own home, and privacy was somewhat limited. Additionally, the days were quite packed with activity. I didn’t make the necessary time for myself. However, I did have sex with Jill, so there was no lack of desire on my part. While we could have incorporatead masturbation into the sex as we did at other times during the month, it just didn’t happen those two particular days.

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That’s okay, though. I don’t feel like a failure for missing those two days. I’m not trying to compensate, through self-pleasure, for something that’s missing or off in my life. Which is not to say that I necessarily felt that way in 2015, when I had seven sessions with three or more orgasms in a row. But this year I feel less like a frazzled, stressed-out parent and more like a self-actualized person who happens to have a kid.

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Speaking of which, I didn’t make time for many long, multiple-orgasm sessions this year. That happened twice at the most. I’m not sure why this is; I had sufficient time most days to spend an hour or two getting off as many times as I could stand. I’m not in any way saying that’s a phase of which I’ve grown out, but maybe last month it was about quality over quantity.

I do have a lot of leisure time these days. My daughter is in school five days a week for the first time ever. Said leisure time passes quickly, but most days last month I managed to squeeze in a little playtime while she was out of the house. My usual evening respite, i.e. when Jill takes her to one of her after-school activities, was denied me as I had to pick up the slack due to Jill’s work schedule. So I did my best to compensate for it by occasionally sneaking off to the bedroom while our daughter was occupied with homework, lunch, reading, or television. She’s quite cooperative lately; she didn’t used to be.

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Jill managed to participate daily, though not according to any sort of schedule or regimen. On the contrary, her masturbation throughout May was much more spontaneous than it has been in recent years. It’s not unusual for her to shut our bedroom door and get off in the afternoon or early-evening. Additionally, her “quick orgasm in the shower before work” ritual has been dusted off, at least when time allows. In fact, her early-morning gym schedule often sees her showering when she returns home, which affords her a bit more time than she’d have if she slept in.

Speaking of which, I’m certain those two days when I didn’t get off saw Jill doing so in the shower with a waterproof toy. Me, though? I might make time to have an orgasm in the shower five percent of the time. And that’s probably me being generous. We had a lot of rain this spring, but California is still in a drought.

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I can admit that it’s a huge turn-on to see Jill reclaiming her sexual agency in this way. That she’s so energized due in part to the attentions of a male friend of ours likely makes it even hotter. Who doesn’t want to feel desired? It’s safe to say we both saw an uptick in masturbation while sexy-chatting last month. In fact, Jill remains so energized that she hasn’t let up.

 

We hope your Masturbation Month was full of fun and orgasms! In fact, we hope it continues into June!

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Sinful Sunday: Another Satisfied Customer

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For this month’s prompt (“Toys”), we considered doing something playful with some of our daughter’s toys, perhaps not unlike what Molly did in her post this week (albeit without the animation because I’m lazy).  In the end, inspiration for such a photo eluded us, and we opted for business as usual.  Here’s Jill relaxing after an exhilarating play session with her Jopen Vanity vr6.

See who else is being sinful at Molly’s Daily Kiss!

 

Sinful Sunday

Finishing Always Feels Good, Chapter 6

Looking for Chapter 1? It’s here.
Chapter 2?  Here.
How about Chapter 3?
Can’t forget Chapter 4!

There’s also Chapter 5.

This chapter contains a hell of a lot of violence, up to and including attempted murder.  There’s also a general sense of despair.  If you’re looking for sex, there isn’t any.  Consider re-reading Chapters 4 and 5.

Carrie rang the doorbell, her fingers drumming lazily against the wall of the garage as she waited. She acknowledged her racing heartbeat; she had a lot to say and, despite her feelings about Vicky personally, she questioned whether she would be able to hold back once she opened the front door.

The chance meeting with Jamie and Elisa and the feelings it awakened within her. Finally coming face-to-face with the Singawhore. The ensuing brawl, and being placed under arrest – or should she leave that part out? The knowledge that she’d been right about Alan never actually loving his wife. Rick and Alan’s truce. She could even stand to complain about the flight home, which was the most uncomfortable four hours she could remember. Air travel was enough of a pain in the ass without being swollen and sore.

Her good-bye with Alan was as emotional as she had expected, though Carrie was certain it was more of a “we’ll keep in touch” than a legitimate good-bye. While she hoped Alan felt it as strongly as she did, what really struck her was just how okay with all of it Rick had been. Yes, the night before he’d let the other man fuck his wife in multiple places as though he’d never felt any jealousy or betrayal over their affair all those years ago. But on Sunday when she kissed Alan good-bye at the airport Rick stood off to the side before offering him a friendly handshake. And it was a very long kiss, too.

Carrie doubted she would tell Vicky about the threesome. It had been one of the most incredible things Carrie had ever experienced in her life and she wanted to shout it to the world, to write about it, to document in some fashion all the lurid details before years passed and the memory of that night began to fade. But it wasn’t any of Vicky’s business, even if Carrie was convinced she would be jealous to hear about it.

She had been doing her best to deal with all of it over the last few days, but it was hard not having anybody with whom she could talk about it. There was Rick, of course, but he had lived it alongside her. There was no sense rehashing the whole thing to him; she knew he wouldn’t understand why she was still dwelling on it. She’d messaged a friend when they got back from Florida to let him know she had big news, but he hadn’t replied. That wasn’t like him at all; he was totally into her.

As the door opened, Carrie attempted to force another smile. Her face still hurt too much. Vicky’s own smile lasted a second before her eyes went wide. “Oh. My. God.” Carrie bristled at the interjection as Vicky stared, taking in her swollen lip and her blackened and puffy eye. Her nostrils were still red and scabby, the scratches on her bare shoulders from Jamie’s nails a dull, fading pink. “What the fuck happened to you?”

“It’s a long story.” This despite her instincts to blurt it all out right there.

Vicky invited her in, all traces of the usual pleasantry gone from her person. In its place, Carrie detected actual concern. She stepped inside the house and Vicky shut the door behind them. When she noticed Carrie was walking with a slight limp she asked, “Are you okay? Do you need help or anything?”

“I’m fine.” She felt Vicky’s hand on her shoulder and roughly pushed it away, concerned after she did that the gesture came off as too aggressive. “Sorry. It still hurts a little.” They stood in the entryway.

“Well, what the hell happened to you? Car accident?” Vicky’s eyes flashed unmistakable worry. “Is Rick okay?”

“I got jumped by these two women.”

“At the ball? What, just two random women?”

Carrie shook her head. “We knew both of them. One was the wife of the guy I had an affair with when we were in Korea.” She swallowed hard and spoke: “Elisa. Remember I told you about them? They were both stationed in Osan with Rick.”

“Oh, right! Friends of yours. They had a little boy, right?”

“And a little girl. Anyway, the other was this little slut Rick met in Singapore. I don’t know if Rick ever mentioned her to you. I want to say he did.” Vicky nodded. “Before Saturday I’d never even met her before.”

“Wow. Awfully strange that they were both there at the ball, isn’t it?”

“Yes! Jamie wasn’t even in the military!” Carrie anticipated Vicky’s next question and said, “Rick told me she’d emailed him a few weeks ago to tell him she’d gotten engaged to some airman and had moved back to the United States.”

“Rick still emails her?”

“No. He said it was right out of the blue. First time in years. He didn’t tell me about it when she emailed because he wasn’t planning on writing her back. He just read it and deleted it right away.”

“I don’t know. Sounds kind of sneaky to me.”

“Nothing’s going on. I trust him.” At this, Vicky raised an eyebrow. Carrie found herself upset by the implication, as well as her skepticism. Where did she get off calling Rick’s character into question? She had, by her own admission, loved Carrie’s husband as much as she loved her own. In fact, that love had seriously hurt Carrie’s relationship with Rick. She tried not to let her annoyance show. “He cut ties with her right before we met you guys. He needed to. We had to focus on our marriage.”

“I’m sure everything was above board,” Vicky agreed as she led Carrie past the pool room and kitchen and into the family room. “Coffee?” Carrie answered affirmatively. She kicked a couple toys away from the large light blue sofa, then took a seat. She took her wristlet off of her wrist, the keys still clipped to the strap. The whole thing clattered noisily as Carrie set it down on the coffee table. Vicky crossed to the kitchen and got two cups down from the cupboard.

“It was so weird. It was like they both knew each other somehow.”

“Who?” Vicky asked, confusion in her voice. “You mean Rick and…” Her voice trailed off.

“The two bitches who jumped me.”

“Could they have?”

“I can’t imagine how. Not unless Rick mentioned Alan’s wife to Jamie but even then, how would she have gotten in touch with her?”

Vicky made a sound like she was giving serious thought to Carrie’s scenario. “And why would she, even?”

“Exactly! What, just so they could eventually confront me? Too much effort.”

“So you’re thinking it’s a coincidence?” Vicky asked as she filled the cups.

Carrie watched as Vicky stirred for a very long time. “Both of them being there, yeah. That was a coincidence. But that night, right before I first saw Jamie, Rick and I ran into Alan and Elisa. Rick got into it with Alan and it was this big, ugly scene. Maybe Jamie noticed, realized who I was, and approached Elisa.”

Vicky walked over to the sofa with the two steaming cups in hand. She set one down on Carrie’s coaster and spoke: “Maybe, but why? Just to…beat you up or something?” She took her usual seat on the smaller sofa.

“I don’t know. I guess.” Carrie shrugged.

“That’s pathological.” Even as the words left her lips, Vicky appeared to be considering it.

“It’s the only thing that makes any sense.”

Vicky took a sip of her coffee. “Well, they really did a number on you.”

Carrie nodded, briefly considering that her soreness was due almost as much to Rick and Alan as to Elisa and Jamie. Still, she didn’t let on. Instead she said, “You should see what I did to them.”

Vicky’s eyes widened. She seemed incredulous at the sound of Carrie’s words, as though she couldn’t fathom the thought of her actually winning a fight against one woman, much less two. “What did you do to them?”

“Let’s just say I was the only one standing when they finally broke up the fight. From what I heard, Elisa will never walk again. And Jamie? I hope she’s brain-damaged.” Vicky looked down toward the coffee table and Carrie followed her eyes down to the coffee cup on the coaster. She went on: “That’ll teach them to fuck with me.”

“I wonder if Jamie went to the ball because she knew Rick would be there. Like, she wanted to see him one last time.” Vicky made it sound like it was the most obvious thing in the world, as though she was implying that of course Jamie was there to see Rick. No way could it have been a coincidence. The “I wonder if” sounded disingenuous and passive-aggressive.

“She didn’t even say hello to him.”

“Not as far as you know, anyway. I really hope they haven’t been emailing regularly all this time.”

“They’re not. Really. I trust Rick.”

“Good. It wouldn’t be good for anyone if you had to start checking his email account.” Carrie denied she ever would, so Vicky changed her tact: “Well, I”m proud of you for giving as good as you got. I don’t know if I would have done as well in your shoes, with two crazy bitches ganging up on me.”

Carrie watched as Vicky’s eyes drifted back down to the coffee cup, then she spoke. “I’ve never fought like that before.” She paused. “I mean, I’ve practically never fought before, ever, but definitely not like this. I mean, I broke Elisa’s leg! I could see her femur sticking out!” Vicky looked up. Her face was white. She was hanging on every word Carrie spoke. “There was blood everywhere.”

“Look at you! You gonna try for a career in MMA?” Vicky’s voice was shaky. Carrie couldn’t be sure, but she thought she actually detected some fear in her eyes. “You gonna face Ronda Rousey in the Octagon sometime?” Maybe it was just respect. Carrie couldn’t tell. Could it be admiration? She wouldn’t have thought it possible.

“No way. I never want to go through something like that again. I’m just lucky the police knew they started it. Otherwise I might be sitting in some jail in Jacksonville right now.”

Vicky’s eyes glanced back down at Carrie’s coffee cup. “You’re right. It could have been a lot worse.” She seemed to be regarding the cup with curiosity. Carrie wondered why; it was identical to Vicky’s own.

“All I’ve been able to think about the last couple days is those poor kids. Zack and Amy. What’s their life going to be like now? Their mother is crippled. She might be facing prison time on top of it.” The last sentence weighed heavily on her. “Jesus. Prison.”

“You sound like you feel sorry for her, rather than for the kids.”

“I don’t. I’m just thinking how easily that could have been me. What if the security camera was in a different place? What if they didn’t see Elisa throw the first punch? Then maybe I’d be in jail and they’d be free. Maybe that’s what they wanted the whole time. Rick couldn’t be a single parent. Raising two kids is hard enough for both of us together, but he couldn’t do it alone. I couldn’t do it alone.”

Carrie expected the other woman to give some earnest rebuke, to tell her that it’s not all that hard to raise two kids and in fact go out of her way to paint it as the simplest, most natural thing in the world, even when both parents worked full-time as she and Paul did. She might even make some offhanded remark about how it’s easy if you have the right partner, and then when Carrie reflexively asked for clarification she would insist that she didn’t intend to imply that she and Rick were poorly-matched. Of course not, how could you even think that was what I meant?

But that’s who Vicky was: Catty. Passive-aggressive. Haughty and superior. Determined to be the Alpha dog of the quad at all costs. Yes, Paul was the one who had broken Carrie’s heart and shattered her confidence, but Vicky was the one who’d attempted to drive a wedge between her and Rick. She’d nearly succeeded, too. All of a sudden Carrie felt angry with herself for trying to maintain a friendship with her.

She looked over at Vicky, sitting on the sofa across from her. Her eyes were still on the coffee cup. Carrie watched her in silence until Vicky realized she was being stared at and she looked up. Vicky’s lips quickly formed a plastic smile that made her usual fake smile at the front door seem genuine. She gestured to the cup on the coaster. “Go on, Carrie,” she said. “Drink your coffee.”

Carrie reached down to take the cup in her hand. She held it for a moment, studying the glazed white ceramic mug, heavy and featureless, before giving it a half-turn under the pretense of switching hands. Just as she suspected, there was nothing distinctive about the cup, no reason for Vicky to have spent half the conversation staring at it so intently.

“It was you.”

A few seconds passed before Vicky spoke. “What was me?” Then she ducked as Carrie’s coffee cup sailed at her face before crashing against the wall behind the sofa. It shattered there, sending jagged ceramic fragments and a wave of still-hot coffee cascading over the back of the couch. Vicky leapt to her feet, narrowly avoiding a serious burn. She looked down at her forearm, where a long, jagged cut had opened up. “What the fuck? You cut me!”

“You’re the only one who knew about both of them.”

“What the hell are you even talking about, Carrie? What is wrong with you?” There was definitely something in Vicky’s eyes, but it wasn’t fear. It was something else, and Carrie didn’t like it. She got up from the sofa and walked around the coffee table, never taking her eyes off the other woman, even as Vicky’s eyes remained fixed on her. Vicky put her own coffee cup down on the table. “Get the fuck out of my house,” she spat, adding for emphasis a decisive “you crazy little bitch.” There was determination in her voice. Arrogance, even. How dare she act like the victim here?

Instead of walking to the door, Carrie stopped where she stood.

“Move it!” Vicky barked. “Broke my fucking cup and now I have to clean coffee and broken glass out of my fucking couch.” But Carrie was tired of listening so she lunged for Vicky’s throat, pulling her quickly and forcefully to the ground. For an instant she considered that it was easier than she thought. She expected Vicky to be more on guard, to give her more of a fight.

As Carrie tried to get on top of her opponent Vicky sent up a foot that connected with her midsection and sent her reeling. Carrie felt the hard corner of the coffee table dig into the meat of her leg as she moved past it, colliding with the armchair and upending it. As Carrie picked herself back up from the carpet she saw Vicky rushing her and hurried to her feet, bracing herself for impact. She adopted a classic fighter’s stance – or what Carrie imagined such a stance looked like – in the hopes of being able to withstand the force of Vicky’s charge.

Rather than absorbing it, Carrie reached out at the last second and grabbed her shoulders, trying furiously to force her off course. The two women grappled, arms pulling and hands twisting flesh, knees connecting angrily with stomachs and legs. Teeth were bared, both pairs of eyes narrowed to desperate slits, but neither woman spoke. Carrie considered that it probably looked like some kind of perverse tango.

She could see the muscles in Vicky’s forearms flexing and rippling and she dug her heels into the carpet. There was no way in hell she was going to let her win. Carrie pushed back even harder, and finally managed to shove Vicky into the piano, slamming it against the wall and shaking the entire room. Photos fell from the piano in their frames, and the various dusty tchotchkes followed. Nearby, one of Paul’s framed photos fell from the wall, the glass exploding outward when it hit the floor.

Carrie wasted no time in following the slam with a vicious punch aimed squarely at Vicky’s cheekbone, but the other woman moved out of the way and her fist cracked against the piano instead. She cried out in pain and cradled her hand, which gave Vicky all the time she needed to grab her own coffee cup and swing it in Carrie’s direction. The younger woman was quicker, fueled by adrenaline and white hot-rage, and threw up her arms to block the assault. The cup was empty – Vicky had inadvertently dumped out the coffee when she moved to avoid the mug Carrie threw – so at least Carrie didn’t have to worry about getting burned. She swatted the cup out of Vicky’s grasp and it fell to the carpet, skidding harmlessly to a stop.

Carrie paid the cup no heed as she plowed her fist into Vicky’s stomach. Another punch followed, landing hard against her shoulder, and a third connected with her mouth. The fourth missed its target as Vicky leaned out of the way of the blow and threw one of her own. Carrie’s raised arms perfectly mimicked boxers she’d seen on television. She held her arms in front of her face even as Vicky’s fist battered her forearm. She maintained the posture and Vicky adjusted her aim, her next punch careening off of Carrie’s ribcage and nearly taking her breath away.

“Oh, fuck you!” Carrie shouted as she pulled back her fist. Vicky raised her arms just as Carrie had, steeling herself for the punch. Carrie changed her mind at the last second and kicked her instead. As her foot swung upward Carrie pictured someone in a martial arts movie delivering a roundhouse kick that wins the fight. What she actually delivered wasn’t exactly that, but it did take Vicky off balance, allowing Carrie a moment to grab her by the legs and tackle her to the floor.

Or she would have, if the coffee table hadn’t been in the way. As Carrie pushed Vicky against it, the glass pane buckled and caved in under her back. In seconds the large shards of clear glass crumbled into chunks and tiny bits. The table creaked and the sudden weight of the two women collapsed it completely, splintering the smooth wood into dangerous pieces and scattering tiny pebbles of glass everywhere. Vicky hit the carpet with a thud and Carrie used her to break her own fall.

The two women lay there for a moment, neither moving or making a sound. Then Carrie pulled herself off of Vicky and brushed some tiny, almost powdery glass off of her clothing. Her top was torn. That sucked; Carrie really liked it. But she didn’t feel too awful. No visible cuts, as far as she could tell. She left the other woman lying in the wreckage of the coffee table. She wasn’t even moving.

Carrie felt panic wash over herself. What was she supposed to do? Should she just leave? Or was she supposed to…finish her off? The very thought seemed so grotesque and wrong to Carrie that she could hardly let herself consider it. But she knew that she couldn’t let Vicky tell anyone what had happened. The fight with Elisa and Jamie had been self-defense but this wasn’t. It wasn’t even close. She would go to prison. She would miss out on watching Jake and Libby grow up. She’d probably lose Rick too.

No. She had to end this right here and right now. She didn’t know how she was going to do it, and she questioned whether she’d actually be able to go through with it, but it was either this or go to prison so she was going to have to figure it out, and summon the fortitude to see it through. She looked for something heavy she could use as a bludgeon: a broken table leg, a lamp, or even the fucking piano. Anything that would just finish it. That is, if it wasn’t over already. For all Carrie knew, she was already dead.

Carrie looked around the kitchen, eager to find something that would work. She reminded herself to avoid putting her hands on anything she didn’t have to, and made a mental note to collect and destroy anything she’d touched since she’d been in the house, or at least wipe it down. That included the broken coffee mug. She used a dishtowel to pull open one of the drawers in the island, where she found a large black flashlight. It felt like aluminum, heavy in Carrie’s hand. It would work fine.

Carrie imagined swinging it down into the other woman’s head. She wasn’t sure where would be the best spot. Top of the head? Back of the neck? Temple? She thought about what the impact would feel like, and the sound it would make. The thought repulsed her, made her stomach churn and her knees feel weak. But there was no turning back now. She closed the drawer and walked back to the family room where she found Vicky trying to rise from the pile of wood and glass that moments earlier had been a coffee table.

Vicky groaned in pain as she pushed off of the floor, and as tiny bits of glass bit into the palms of her hands the groans became an inhuman howl. To Carrie’s dread she stood up, her eyes ablaze with rage. Her lips receded in a primal sneer, much like a dog that’s protecting its territory from a threat. Carrie saw blood running thick and heavy from her lips, painting a crimson web between her teeth. It was definitely from the punch she’d landed against Vicky’s mouth. No missing teeth though.

She mumbled something that sounded like “Kill you” and charged at Carrie. Carrie charged as well, and the two women grappled once again. Vicky’s hands made for Carrie’s throat, but she held Vicky’s wrists and pushed hard. At the same time Carrie could feel Vicky’s leg wrapping around her own like a snare.

Oh, hell no. Carrie wasn’t going to let Vicky take her down. Even as she continued to struggle against the other woman, Carrie kicked wildly against the intruding appendage, eventually stomping downward with all her might. She imagined Vicky’s leg bursting in an eruption of blood and bone the way Elisa’s had, but all she managed to do was stun the other woman long enough to get a couple punches in. Just body blows; that was all Carrie could manage. She would have liked to have gone for a couple head shots, and maybe caved in her goddamned skull while she was at it.

Vicky recovered quickly and answered Carrie’s punches in kind. They landed square against her temples, first the right, then the left, then the right again, or so Carrie thought. She hadn’t even realized that Vicky had stopped punching her, in fact, when she noticed there were now three identical opponents standing in front of her, all with stringy blonde hair and swollen, bruised eyes. They were talking in unison through broken, bloody lips, spitting epithets Carrie couldn’t quite understand. Their collective voice was strange and jarring. Were they even speaking English? They had their fists up in what appeared to be a defensive position, and Carrie wasn’t certain which Vicky she should hit first. The one in the middle, she supposed. Yes, that was probably the real one.

Carrie wanted to say something fierce and intimidating as she lunged, but all that came out of her mouth was a turbulent scream, a war cry. Her hands darted toward Vicky’s throat, but her adversary sidestepped the clumsy move and delivered another punch that crashed into Carrie’s face and left her crumbling to the ground. And just like that, Carrie knew she had lost. She hadn’t the will nor the determination – to say nothing of the strength – to fight another moment longer to save her own life. As the realization washed over her she also understood she was never going to kill Vicky. She simply didn’t have it in her.

Okay, bitch. Do what you’re going to do.

Vicky’s hands closed around her throat and her fingers pressed inward. Carrie’s vision went cloudy and dim. As her body settled onto the floor, Carrie felt something coarse and gritty under her back. Sand? Was she on the beach? She fancied that she could hear seagulls overhead and children playing nearby. She could even feel the sun on her skin, and she tried to let herself relax and enjoy it. It was hard to do with Vicky throttling her, but Carrie knew that all she had to do was go to sleep and it would all be over.

What choice did she have, anyway? She couldn’t fight back. She was almost too weak to move. And if she could move, what then? She still had to beat Vicky – and finish her off – plus clean up all the evidence and get the hell out of the house before Paul got home, all without being seen by anyone. It was too difficult. It was better this way.

To be continued.

TMI Tuesday: May 31, 2016

It’s TMI time baby! You know what to do: answer the questions below, and post to your blogs on Tuesday—TMI Tuesday.

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Jack’s Answers

1. Who are you?
Per my Twitter profile, I am a non-monogamous poly geek, and a feminist stay-at-home Dad. I am a freethinker, and an artist on the page, behind the camera, and in the kitchen. I am a loyal friend, an insatiable lover, and a romantic at heart.

2. What is your purpose in this world?
To live a life that makes me happy – whatever that ultimately entails – and hopefully to spread some of that happiness to others.

3. What do you need to be sexually happy?
Non-monogamy. More than any particular manner of adventure or excitement, more even than orgasm I suppose (though I do need regular orgasms), I require variety with regard to my partners.

4. Have you found true love?
Yep. Jill and I may have some of the hottest sex imaginable, but we love each other pretty deeply as well. Which is not to say that I haven’t found love with others, but hers is the truest love I can imagine.

5. How do you nourish yourself?
With delicious (usually home-cooked) food, sex with my wife and others, quality time with family and close friends, flirting with anyone who’s game, and as much quiet time as is humanly possible (still not enough though).

6. Do you crave more or less sex now versus 2 years ago?
I’m probably craving the same amount of sex as I was craving two years ago.

7. Are you having sex more or less now versus 2 years ago?
I am having much more sex than I was two years ago. In fact, I’d go so far as to say I’m having about as much as I was having circa the heyday of this blog in 2012, when we were having sex near-daily.

8. Who is sexier–the 20-year-old you or you right now?

Definitely thirty-nine year-old (i.e. present-day) me. Twenty-year-old me thought he was hot as hell, and he was pretty sexy. But compared to present-day me, that guy is a troll under a bridge.

Bonus: Think back to your last sexual encounter–were you emotionally present? Why or Why not?
I was. I’d say it was because I was having sex with my wife, but I’m likely to be emotionally present regardless of my partner. Admittedly when it’s with my wife my emotional presence is much greater.

Jill’s Answers

1. Who are you?
I’m a strong, caring, intelligent, sex-positive mother and wife.

2. What is your purpose in this world?
My purpose is to make the world a better place through my actions and interactions.

3. What do you need to be sexually happy?
I need someone who desires and pleases me, and who I can turn on and please as well. Some degree of sexual variety is probably necessary too. And I say this as a woman who just a year ago was certain I didn’t actually require more than one single partner for the rest of my life. Desire, maybe. Require, no.

4. Have you found true love?
I believe I have found true love in my husband, primary partner, and best friend.

5. How do you nourish yourself?
After years of putting the needs of everyone and everything ahead of my own, I have recently begun to nourish myself by making more time for myself. I take regular bubble baths, get massages frequently, exercise daily, and eat healthier than I used to. It’s all part of my strategy for being the best me I can possibly be.

6. Do you crave more or less sex now versus 2 years ago?
I crave more sex than I did two years ago. In 2014, we were adjusting to a number of life changes including our daughter being much more aware, vocal, and needy than she was a year earlier. This limited the amount of sex we were able to have. And while the amount of sex one is having shouldn’t necessarily correspond with the amount they want, the fact is there was a point when I adjusted my expectations and maybe wanted it a bit less than I do now. At the very least I didn’t expect it as much as I did in, say, 2011 and 2012 (when we had sex frequently).

7. Are you having sex more or less now versus 2 years ago?
More now, as stated above.

8. Who is sexier–the 20-year-old you or you right now?
Me right now. I am currently much more confident than I was at twenty. That adds to my overall hotness.

Bonus: Think back to your last sexual encounter–were you emotionally present? Why or Why not?
I was definitely emotionally present. I think I always am, to some extent.

How to play TMI Tuesday: Copy the above TMI Tuesday questions to your webspace (i.e., a blog). Answer the questions there, then leave a comment below, on this blog post, so we’ll all know where to read your responses. Please don’t forget to link to tmituesdayblog from your website!